Confide In Me.

stop sucking my blood

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 20:47:43 GMT

puki suck my fucking blood. and where's the limit?
fuck it, i hate it this way. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Zouk Out 09

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 08:07:55 GMT

there's not much to update these days, life been awesome, baby's been busy working and working, and we had an awesome time always when we're together. Zoukout 09 was awesome shitteeee. we just can't deny it. i love the music played, i love the time spent with baby & last and foremost, i love my Roihan Rashid <3

yey! at last baby is all well, Alhamdulillah. and sometimes i just feel that i'm the only person can go through all that's been through in my relationship, honestly, it's hard. not that he's been a jerk. this year, is not that good year for him. but afterall, i know i'm still the one that keep him holding on, keep him high and never pull him down. for that, i know we can make it through whatever obstacles and never turn back to our decisions. i wanna see us til we're with wrinkle and walking sticks.

and what's been wrote in Qad's wall "all the love stories have one thing in common,you have to go against odds to get there"

:)

my baby's body is a wonderland.. hahah

Work

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 01:45:28 GMT

I'm at work & i miss boyfriend alot.

& ohmy! ZOUKOUT is fucking awesomeee <3 it's only me & love!
i'll update again later at home

My Man Has Turned 20 on 30th Nov 09

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 13:56:19 GMT

might be wondering what's my present to my beloved: picture below, everything he wears
except the shades and the necklace. G-STAR shirt and jeans, converse shoes and pull & bear jacket (not in pic)

30th November, everything went well, surprise was indeed a surprised! thanks to the Bukit Panjang boys that made everything happened. i was very much thankful to them, if not for them; the boys, boyfriend's birthday would be a dull one without surprises of any kind.

and i'm really blessed to be with him & going through ups & downs with him. i really love the way he make me feel love and the way he wants me to show him love. he's my man, my life-saver, my precious & soon to be, my future.

my "mother in law" said this : dah takmo tunggu lama-lama, 5 tahun terus kahwin korang. hahahah mampos. and i think our whole family have faith in us. and yes, we too have faith in ourselves, i love u, i love us.

let's make this relationship a smooth sailing one.

the only guy i've spend money on his birthday for almost $1000 but it's all worth it & i love you alot; Roihan Rashid.

May our love last til eternity, may we have a good family in future & may wealth & health be with us. last but not least may ALLAH be by our side always.

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:50:48 GMT

Monday was a disaster for boyfriend. i wouldn't wanna explain in here, he went hospital but Alhamdulillah he is okay and i really hope he will really change for good over what had happened. :'(

so this week i only work for 1 day, Monday. and actually my leave starts today but i took Urgent leave yesterday as i need to be there for my boyfriend, he needs me more than the company do. and today he will be sleeping over & tomorrow we'll be going Malaysia together & i can't wait for Sunday!! <3

29th is his celebration and i hope it will really turn out a blast, i love you baby. you're my man, my only, my precious & last but not least, my everything.

Muhammad Roihan bin Mohamed Rashid , my forever.

Love Day

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 08:52:41 GMT

today is the 21st! and he celebrated with me :)) we went JB lastnight and he slept over my place and we had fun the whole of JB and when we're at home we fell alseep watching tv. so i woke him up to sleep in abg's room and i went straight and flat in my room. it was fucking cold night i would say.

and in the morning, he went home after having breakfast with me & i sent him off to the busstop with my pyjamas. why he went off early? ape lagi laki aku nie, MAIN BOLA laarr! grrrr! but i don't really mind, cos i know he is enjoying every single shit of the ball he kicks. and i'm supporting him all the way thru.

oh yes, speaking of ball, he'll be going for Prime League trial tomorrow, and i really hope you gets selected or something although he failed his ECG but i know he is one hell of a good footballer & i really want my future-husband to go far with football. but if can i wouldn't want him to make it as his career, infact, i want him to be a firefighter! but then he still can be a part-time footballer as SCDF is under Home-team!

Talking about Love day, i made him an envelope with outter designs of cut magazines alphabet, inside that envelope i insert a letter i wrote a poem in it. and he said it was nice & he also said "you semangat ehh, everymonth w/o fail you'll do something for me" hahaha! of cos lar, sayang punya pasal lorrr. kalau tak sayang dah jalan hor? ahahah.

and despite him having his trial selection tomorrow, i'll be going over to his place to visit MAK & AYAH, it's been nearing one month i didn't see both the parents. and hell yeah, i miss my to-be-mother-in-law alot.. :) see you tomorrow, mother love.

and now i'm thinking if i should follow the parents to JB for some visiting of places. i don't wanna be there on WEEKENDS please? and it's Saturday, i should be enjoying BENNY BENASSI more! hahaha

okay then gotta run.

Your Body's Wonderland

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 13:19:56 GMT

I don't know why, but these days i've been missing boyfriend alot. it's like i easily missed him & i think i'm missing him now. :(
i can't wait for his big day, i can't wait for Malacca trip with family & i also can't wait for ZOUKOUT with babyboy.

last Saturday partying with him was awesome, some disturbance but still, i enjoy being with him for more than 24 hour. it was sucha great pleasure, sucha great feelings, having him in my arms, having him by myside & last but never the least, having him all to myself. he's the only person that ever could give me the greatest of all feelings.

G-star shirt, G-star jeans, Converse shoes, Pull & Bear jacket, zara tees & many more items & surprises to come will definitely light up your birthday! i love you,alot & you sincerely knows how much you fucking meant to me.

oh wells, just hope and pray for the best on 21st December. & this Saturday is 21st & it's our LOVE day.

my forever.

You're The Best Damn Thing!

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 12:46:58 GMT

I will always hold your hand, I'll never let you fall
'Cause nothing, nothing else matters at all
If you're scared, just think of me, 'cause you know I'd never let you be
Anywhere but with me

I wanna fly you to the moon.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 08:31:18 GMT

"My Someone Special"

Someone has cast a spell on me
I wonder and wonder, oh who could it be?
Someone makes my adrenaline pump and my heart race
Everyday this someone puts a smile on my face
Someone has magically made me fall head over heels
But sometimes I wonder how my someone feels
This someone has conquered all my thoughts
And hit me emotionally in all the right spots

My wishes were granted when we first met
The moment we kissed is one I’ll never forget
He fills my days with happiness and delight
I love it when we touch and hold each other tight
He gives me a feeling I've never felt before
His great personality is one thing I highly adore
There's something in him I just can't explain
His smile and laughter make me go insane
My companion, my partner, and very best friend
The connection between us will never ever end
I hope my someone knows how much he means to me
I don't know what else to do to make him see

This someone is one of the greatest things in the world
I'm so happy he's my man and I'm his girl
I can't find words to express how I feel inside
We tell each other everything, there's nothing to hide
He swept me off my feet by just being true

Now to be next to him is all I wanna do
Why do I want him in a way I can't express?
Why do I think he's the best of the best?
There's so many reasons, I could go on and on
Sunrise to sunset, dusk till dawn
Who is this someone you ask, I'll tell you who
This one special someone of mine, is you.

My Boyfriend's D-Week.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 08:40:34 GMT

Tied Together With a Smile

I love Taylor Swift :)

Dear, I'm hoping everything & every SINGLE thing will go smoothly for you; from 4th November to 7 November.
i can't wait! like from the first day i knew you, i know you gonna be a guy that will never disappoint me at the end of the day, that's why i'm always praying for you everynight before i sleep.

You know you meant the world to me, and i really mean this that you're one guy that i wouldn't want to be replaced. the 21 heart shapes that i made, holds a deep meaning to our love. & you even said this "i suke sangat,babe. i appreciate every single thing you did from the past til now & in future to come. cos i know there'll be more! :)"

i think boyfriend gonna find a part-time work soon. he wants to pamper me like how i've been pampering him all this while. but he said this "i nak beli kan u banyak benda, tapi u selalu nak benda mahal gile sia. like Coach bag lar. Coach wallet lar. Kate Spade lar. LongChamp Shoes lar. u mentel sangat kadang2. mane i boleh buy gitu" hehehe kesian horrr. i was just kidding lar sweetie about all those stuffs. of cos if i want all the luxurious, i will save and buy it myself. i won't use your money for such expensive materials. but i know, if you have a stable job after your NS, i will be fed with all the high end brands. cos i know you too well to even buy me a cheap shitstuffs. that's why we're one heart as one. :)

it's freaking FAST, today is already the 1st November & it means, 5th November (Thursday) i won't be working. i took leave for my boyfriend's medical & of cos, i can't wait for Saturday! we gonna spend the whole fucking day together & we gonna rule the time & not the time ruling us,anymore. *GRIN*

November, we have lotsa agenda meaning little work for me as well. i'll be also going for BSS training for work from 16-20th & i'll be going on leave from 25-30th(baby's birthday) and with this leave from 26-28th we will be going to Malaysia with my family for Hari Raya Haji. all this brings me joy & lighting up our relationship. & of cos i can't wait for DECEMBER too! 12th December= ZOUKOUT, people~

and today's Sunday, i'm home! if not i'll be over at boyfriend's. since he is out to some Kenduri with his friends, i won't disturb and be a good girl to stay home Sunday. but no doubt, i'm missing my baby but not as much though, cos we've been talking too long last night, from 11.30pm to 2am+. it's been quite sometime since we spoke that much.

you're one guy i'd call, my precious.

Life is Wonderful

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 16:44:08 GMT

I dedicate this song for my sweetchild, RoihanRashid.
i love you to the fullest,baby <3

It takes a crane to build a crane

It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

Bang! Bang! You're Dead.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:43:06 GMT

It was indeed a Monday blue.

I came in the office with outlook already opened when i unlock my computer. not to my surprise my mailbox was full. System administrator even sent out an email stating that "mailbox has exceeded... blah blah shit" so i read every single one of them that is related to my team or myself. and the rest about Mobile Billing, i deleted. Only from one user i kept, which was from Kelvin. cos his email is always interesting and fun to read at. :)

I received bottles of chewing gums. & i extended my shifting down again. I don't have the likes of going down at all. thinking of LEVEL 2 makes me -____-". i need a company like Wilson to be around me. i shall wait til next week when he's back from his BSS training & we shall rule the level. hahah!!

anyways, baby lost in his Finals. and their soccer trip would be to Thailand. & i'm happy that at least he got to travel in the group. but at the same time, i have to spare him some money just incase he wants to shop something there or even BUY me something. hehehe. *grin*

and my baby don't know the meaning of TIREDNESS. went to school in the morning - soccer match - went dinner - play soccer.
omg. i really hope this won't affect his medical next week. and i really hope that his friends won't ask him out for a drink or two. cos i want him to be well til 5th November & of cos, be well forever. his golden legs has yet to feel the field of a national player.

me as a girlfriend, is very concern about boyfriend's health; he can only play soccer 3 times a week. but he's been very rebellious. been going against our rules. been playing soccer 5 times a week. & i have my reasons for this. and it's only us know the reason to it.
baby boy, please take good care of yourself. i want to be the one taking care of you til you grow old ok? and if you really going for ops this end year, i'll sleep over the hospital with you. because i love you! <33

ohhhh! and we're getting new niece from baby's first brother. i can't waiiiit! i chose some names & i hope they consider my choice.
and i will post some pictures from work we took with boss tomorrow. but no promises.

goodnight world, i wanna have an early night (: and talk to baby first.

It makes me smile

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 12:26:11 GMT

Pocket Full of Sunshine

first thing first, my work has been taking my life away, it's been so long i really sit down and blast music. & i miss kicking balls & legs. *BOOOHOOO*

21st which was on Wednesday, i didn't get to celebrate anything with Roihan. :( but we were cool about it, simply becos we understands each other very well. & i've been very sick these days.

~~FLU & SORE THROAT.~~

but now it's recovering, alhamdulillah. *SMILE*

how can i talk about work? i've been making quite number of friends. i'll be permanently transferring down to level 2 under Administration Dept. and i've made 2 new guy friends; Kelvin & Wilson. very nice & helpful guys. blessing to have them around. & Wilson's style is coool laaa~ & yes, both speaks malay fluently. a plus point there, u see. we can gossip without using only ENGLISH language. :P

anyway, baby had matches these few days & yes! College West qualifies to the final & i've yet to ask baby who are they competing against on the final. i hope it will be College Central. hahaha!

today marks the day where our parents went out together to Malaysia & they're not back yet. and i'm wondering how would they entertain each other? ahahah! and babbbbyy i can't wait to see you tomorrow. i miss you alot. and it sucks when i can only meet you once or twice a week :(

my new boss is pleasant. she granted all my leaves. 5th November for baby's check up. 25 - 30th November Holiday with family and Baby and his birthday celebration! <3333 and ZOUKOUT 09, here we come! :D

i have the bestest boyfriend anyone could ever have. just that he rarely says he love me becos it's no use saying if you don't show.
*MWAH*

boyfriend you're always what i wanted.

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 15:18:08 GMT

baby you're the best.
& i'm sorry if i've made alot mistakes towards you.
especially something that you never knew.

anyways, my parents and his parents are going for some getaway trip to Malacca next Friday.
yes, only the 4 of them. so cute! macam nak pergi beli benda nikah pulak. heheh. :D

i love you,roihan rashid.

I love Roihan Rashid

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 16:33:13 GMT

the past 7 months of dating him is a huge CHALLENGE. i know what he was up to, playbacks and all. i was a good pretender; he said i was the greatest and i'm not the easiest girl to be played with & neither am i the easiest to be cheated at. but i thank god you're all changed.

i know some might not agree of me and you be together. some maybe very unhappy about our relationship and all. but the fact is, those girls they knew you when you were a jerk. just like when i first know you. but you proved me wrong. of all the girls; you still choose me. alhamdulillah. god answer to my prayers. & i thank god alot that he gave me the faith and patience to this guy all along.

he who made me who i am today. and changed me of who i am yesterday. and i seriously thinks that we deserve each others' love. not that i always say this, but the feelings of this love i have for you is different. maybe we're grown up.

so now, from NOTHING to SOMETHING, i'm really thankful for your presence in my life. i love you & always will. to your mum; i love you too,mama(just like my own). finally we're officially together for months now. :)

and he was very cute we played this scratch & win card. he said..
him- u takmo disturb i ok. i nak concentrate ni. ni kesah hidup.
me- relek sangat siol bual. hahahaaha.
him- betul la siol. ni kalau aku dpt 10,000 memang aku kahwin dng kau hari ni jugak
me- HAHAHA cute pe kau. relek je, mesti kau penting kan kau nye motor dulu.

very cute hor? :)

p/s: mama (that's what i call his mum) bought me a whitegold earrings :) and i'm loving it. thanks alot,mwaaah.

and when i received the earrings from mama, boyfriend said this to me "ah nie,mama dah kasi mas kahwin. aku tak yah beli kan kau lagi k? AHAHAHA. i replied "you eh. merepek. i nak something else. Tod's nye bag." he rolled his eyes. AHAHA

<3 my very own Rashid's son.

My Life as it seems now.

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 14:29:23 GMT

Life been very busy, even the slightest things in life like watching television or checking my facebook i have no time.

i shall tell you what i do these days...

Mondays to Fridays; work work work.

when i reach home all i wanna do is sit and talk or sometimes(most actually) of the time i'll be out after work to whoever's place or meeting whoever that wants to meet me. unfortunately, i can't resist not talking to boyfriend. thinking about how work life been taking my life away, i pity him much.

he ever complaint that he miss those times whereby Wednesdays, Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays he will come over to spend time with me and my family. right now, as i am a very BUSY woman everything have to be changed. i can only meet him on Weekends and ONLY sometimes on Weekdays. that is if only we're really free and planless by friends and families.

here are some pictures that i took when i went out with him on 3rd October 09; i had a lovely day. i really did. he means the "world" to me cos he is the kinda guy that i'm into.

& there's more pictures but here are the few.

Pictures of Eid Mubarak.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 04:25:30 GMT

First day.

sister and Jc over @ uncle's

me and nephew; Syahrul.. relek sangat siol

my mum & sister.

Green Ranger. HAHA!
my cousin and wife with our family (excluding bro, he has to work on the first day of Eid.

me and Elle (boyfriend's niece) over @ his place with my family

boyfriend <3

us

Second day.

he followed us out, this is over at my place.

first pic i wasnt ready, trying to put on my shoes. second pic macam mak dah ada anak.

people say we have same eyes and smile.
(small and smiley)

boyfriend & my brother.

Like a glue they stick.

Selamat Hari Raya

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 01:13:28 GMT

my hari raya was splendid, i shall say. not because i've lotsa money collected.
it's because first day was fun, meet ups with cousins and all & we rode a car instead of taxis and buses.
not much perspiration and all. (:

first day we visited 5 houses. Marine Parade,;1st uncle, Woodlands;2 Aunties, Bukit Panjang; boyfriend's place and lasly Yew Tee; 1 auntie. boyfriend's place was great, get to meet his families of dad's side and his cute grandma was there, makes me miss mine. :( my whole family meets his whole family ready!

yesterday was the second day & he celebrated with us, went visiting together to my dad's side and also some of mummy's. yesterday also marks 21st September 2009, our big day! and baby boy, i love you! <3<3
Saturday his family will be coming over to my crib and Sunday will be a day spend just both of us.

today, Tuesday, i'm back to office. will update pictures later at night. :) i miss my boy already.

p/s: my room is filled with pictures of us,both.
Dear Roihan, may our goals and dreams achieved. i love you happy 21st Sept. :)

aku sayang kau, bodoh

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 03:50:58 GMT

"wise men say, only fools rush in..."

yesterday was a bitch. it was sucha Monday Blues for everyone, or just me in general.
work sucks, i've yet to adapt with the admin roles in this company. sucha tedious jobscope.
there's no proper guidance and such. *sigh* worst part was, when baby called me yesterday i told him how i felt, my voice was trembling and he raised his voice (wanting me to be strong) & fuck, i ended up crying. i was very weak, he never scolded me before, he never raised his voice at me before. and this is the first time he did & i knew he did out of wanting me to be strong and never give up.

i work for us & we've plenty of things to be get done and over with. Insya'allah i will never give up in my job and i'm pretty sure we will achieve our goals by end of the year. :)

as sucks as yesterday might seems, i end my Monday with a smile. i went over baby's place and by then i reached he was already full and eaten his break fast. we slacked abit and went to Plaza to buy some hair materials or should i say chemicals. i reached his place at 7.15pm and left at 10.40pm. as you bet, my baby gonna look like "matrep" this raya, sucks. he highlighted his hair. and i've yet to see the outcome. i hope it will still make him look hot as ever.

i had fun with him yesterday. i feel loved. and we've been very close eversince i started working 8.5 hours per day.
lack of meet ups. but still heart growing fonder. as cliche as it may sound, the phrase "absence makes the heart grows fonder" is very well used in my life, now.

oh an apology to you,baby. i was rude at 4.30am. when i saw no messages of you or missed calls when i asked u too. i was asleep at that point of time but i was still waiting.
me- takde message. takde missed calls pun. orang tunggu sia.
him- sorry babe. i tgh busy la. i tgh dye rambut nie. gi tidur ler, besok kerja. takya tunggu i k. (his reply seems nice)
me- yelar dye rambut pe abih takleh message? bukan dye tangan.
him- sudah la. pegi tidur la.
me- dari tadi? dgn sape?
him- a'ah la sorng dari tadi.
me- abih besok tak sch ah? tgh buat ape?
him- tak ah malas. tak buat apape la. sudah la u gi tido. besok kan keje nanti complain.
me- ye lar goodnight. takmo bual dgn orang lain k. (paranoid sial aku)
him- yah ok. dadada. go sleep. goodnight.
me- goodnight, message me when u're going to bed.
him- okay :)

okay aku very rude. but who cares? my boyfriend or yours?
afterall i love him & he knows me well.

*yawn* i miss him.
i miss our every Wednesday and Friday meet ups.
i miss eating with u.
i miss singing with u.
i miss clinging with u.
i miss smelling u.
i miss hugging u.
i miss smiling at u.
i miss laughing with u.
i miss watching Football Channel with u.
i miss caressing you.
i miss kissing u.
i miss everything when you're around.

soon 18 months over, and you'll be a freeman.
i can't wait! cos i can have you all to myself even after 10pm! *YAHOO*

SIGH

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:14:41 GMT

this work is taking it's toll on me.
argh fuck, there's not even a proper guidance nor training.
and i've been struggling. manager is the monster.
and boyfriend wasn't any help either, all he did was nag nag nag at me.
he even scolded me for crying, cibai, when i need you the most to hear me out,
all you did was "kalau i kerja dgn u takper, u takmo nangis la! gi tanye, bukak mulut."

i never knew i was this weak.
i never knew u were this fierce.
i never knew i could cry this hard due to work.
fuck, i need some caress and hug.
babyboy, i still need you to comfort me no matter.

i had the best time with boyfriend yesterday.
i love him
bye.

Toothache

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 05:08:18 GMT

motherfuck, i ain't fasting.
i'm having my time of the month & plus my leg is killing me (it's every month symptoms) weird huh? and my gums are killing me softly too.

:'( i don't know how to do the Call Track calculation for the Agents, i'm dead, i'm dead.
and girl, reply me. i need your fucking help.

SIGH

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 05:18:24 GMT

exactly 3 hours ago, i was updating this site of mine, now i'm having my break and i shall go for it soon.
suddenly i'm feeling so down and blue. i'm missing my dear one badly. one day of not meeting seems so long, maybe i'm too in love. ahahaha! who cares, he is cute anyway.

some pest just gotta call me when he's in need. irritating as ever & still have the chick to tell me if i'm still single, does it really matters? you already have a girlfriend,jerk. get a life.
& boyfriend knows who i'm referring to a dear friend of ours,my god. never change lar this dude.

I miss my charming boy.

baby pray for Friday quick & Sunday too!
Cinta kamu banget deh. <3 <3 <3

WOW.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 01:36:48 GMT

basically, i haven't been updating for 6 days as stated in the "last entry posted".
i've ended my contract with EPS Computer Systems Pte Ltd and now, i'm a proud secretary of Starhub. it's never easy working here, as my previous experienced as a Customer Service Officer for this company. Right now, i'm holding a total different post and i'm really praying hard that i could get hold of the things quickly and i'm glad that i get a job two days after my fcuking last day of contract ends. Blessing in disguise, maybe?

Boyfriend is being sweet as ever, on Monday (rare of him) to come over my place to visit me as i was not feeling well and also, to break fast and spent the "last" weekdays with me before the new working life starts again. He's been planning lotsa things for us. This Sunday, another day out with him. We gonna shop! and maybe he is buying a nice Burberry shirt (cross fingers that my size is still available) and boyfriend gonna buy me a watch too, since i complaint that i've lacked of watches. :P and right now, i just hung up the phone with him, yes, i'm missing him. I can't wait to meet my second family and boyfriend this Friday over at his place after work. *SHOUTS*

thank god i found you.
and baby's gonna go for his TP SOON! wooohooo!

Be With You

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 10:53:19 GMT

"And no one knows the things we've been through,
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through,
That's why we'll break through"

boyfriend was the killer today, from 4.30am (sahur) i woke him up he didn't answer the call, 7.30am, still he didn't answer to 8plus to 9plus, til 11am he messaged me that he don't know what happened to him that he can't even open his eyes. and he don't even hear the phone ringing. thank God he is fine & he was very very very late for school. for the first ever time.

what makes me worried sick was, too much unexpected things happening, i just found out that my friend passed away on the 20th January 2009 this year, due to road accident. i found out through his sister from facebook. may you rest in peace,Harry. nanti malam aku baca kan kau Al-Fateha ok? i miss you! :( and another unexpected news was Khalzi admitted to hospital. and now, he is warded for 14 days more. and i really hope i could spare sometime to pay him a visit. get well soon,Zi!

and now, i gotta really take good care of people around me. my love,my family & friends. even myself. and i have a long list of MISS list.
:( i miss dozens of people, if only they know and god, i had a splendid chat with Qad in the morning just now. hehe. gossip-mongers!

& boyfriend will be coming over, yet again, tomorrow! and i so can't wait for Sunday date with him.
THE FINAL DESTINATION 3 with LOVE <3

Get away

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 07:36:17 GMT

"a proper date, 21st. Surprise, surprise!"

love have been talking lots about short get away and all. yesterday night was utterly cute, he woke up from sleep at about 10plus, yes he's like pig break fast then off to sleep. he smsed me this

Him: you, go to this website www. ________.com
Me: huh? what webby is that,pantat?
Him: yes, it's a website, go and see.
Me: i know it's a website 0_0 but what is it?
Him: go ok? i'm sure u gonna like it!

*so i checked*
&
*i grin widely*

Me: hun, u feelingfeeling nak gi honeymoon dengan i?
Him: yesss! feeling aah siaa, u want? u want?
Me: can can, end of year. but i don't wanna go here first, i wanna go to _____ pls?
Him: okay can. we go both of us ok the second trip, first trip go with kakak and abg jc.
Me: caaaaaaaaaaan. :D
Him: cannooottt ehh u naughty naughty. heheh ;)

yes, basically we're planning alot on trips and all. i promised him to really look for work & he too promise me to play his part, to save money and all. he's been saving alot and spending alot for me. awww man, i'm feeling bad. but then at the same time, i'm feeling gooood. ahaha! cos i felt appreciated by him & i so can't wait for 21st September, he said there's a surprise for me!! :)

ohh and anyways, he said this to me

him "i serious nie. i won't leave. i stay. mama okgo, papa also okgo"
me "ape yg okgo u?"
him "my parents ckp kalau jodoh i dgn u, they say can. cos they like us."
me "huh? really? haahahahh! okaaaay, i dah mentel sangat nie."
him "giler. mane tak mentel, takya bual gini pun tak mentel tgk baju babies."
me "babi.bukan babies. ahahha! u cannot hi-light ur hair unless u puasa full ok?"
him "random per u, okayyy deal! unless kalau u allow me to eat, i tak count that."
me "okay sweetheart,babidog"

Confide In Me.

stop sucking my blood

Zouk Out 09

Work

My Man Has Turned 20 on 30th Nov 09

Love Day

Your Body's Wonderland

You're The Best Damn Thing!

I wanna fly you to the moon.

My Boyfriend's D-Week.

Life is Wonderful

Bang! Bang! You're Dead.

It makes me smile

boyfriend you're always what i wanted.

I love Roihan Rashid

My Life as it seems now.

Pictures of Eid Mubarak.

Selamat Hari Raya

aku sayang kau, bodoh

*SIGH*

Toothache

*SIGH*

WOW.

Be With You

Get away

SIGH

SIGH